“I feel like I’m always in my own way.”

You know how to think. You’ve built a life on it.
But now your thoughts have turned into a trap.
Everything feels like a debate with yourself, a negotiation, a postponement.
You’re stuck between clarity and caution.

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If you never quite arrive, no one can throw you out.
If you don’t fully show up, no one can fully reject you.
And if you’re always in progress, people stay patient, including you.

Two versions of you pulling in opposite directions.
One that wants more, a part of you that wants to go forward.
And one that’s terrified, you’re not allowed to have it, that part that doesn’t trust forward.

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But here’s the cost:
You don’t trust yourself anymore. You can’t tell the difference between an actual limit and a made-up one.
And no matter how much you achieve, there's always this nagging sense that you're still... incomplete.

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It’s exhausting, isn’t it?
To be both the engine and the brake.

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Today is not about fixing that.
It’s about remembering you’re not the enemy here.
Here’s something worth knowing:
Let’s take the edge off.

What looks like sabotage is often protection in disguise.
It's clever, feels familiar, and is just simply exhausting.
 

Today isn’t about “overcoming” yourself.
It’s about recognizing the pattern, without hating it.

This isn’t an internal flaw you have to carry, it’s a signal.

And once you stop attacking it, you can actually hear what it’s trying to say.

Let’s get in there. Quickly. Quietly. No drama :)

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A better question:

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What if you’re not in your own way?
What if this is the way, but you’ve been taught to doubt the route?